Thorns of Independence P2

You see, there’s these thorns of independence that I’m surrounded by
But I can see you better when my head’s up in the sky
They never grow that tall
Looking out at you is not real clear
So I look up and God smiles at me
Looking up not out, there’s nothing in between

I want MORE than this, but am convinced I can’t
So I simply deal with what I can
But I am deeply sad, and deeply weak despite what it may seem
I’ve learned to stand with my head a bit too high
And I will smile when the beautiful people I appreciate pass by

At this level some just don’t see them, and come to hug me “Hi”
Get pierced with all these protruding sticks and never again come by
I’m sick and done with nights of tears crying “why oh why!”
I don’t blame them
It wouldn’t work anyway, even if we tried

I’m hurt, I’m lonely, longing for a friend
I wish soo deeply someone would FIGHT
And just do what it took and find a way in!

Wanna shout so they look
But I don’t want them hurt so I let them walk by
I don’t want them cut so I don’t even try
Why would I waste my time thinking about these disappointing circumstances
surrounding my life
Just take pleasure in pain cause it’s not ever going to change
I could cry all day and try to fix it in every way
But in the end it’s still the same
No matter what I do or how hard I try
These thorns remain
Independence don’t die

I’ve learned to deal with this in my life
It’s just something that IS
Regardless, of how much this is hindering my life, pushing people away
At the end of the day, I still have independence to get me by

But inside these beautiful thorns Im hurt and Im longing
For connection I cry, but every dang time when we reach out to try
Sure as the sun our attempt is undone

Can ANYONE help with this need in my life!
Somebody who’s bold enough to rip out these LIES
Then catch all my tears I shed for that deadly beauty
My friend independence that nearly ruined me

You were a method I sowed as of young
A terrible tragedy, now what more may come that “Emotional Disconnect” would’ve kept me from
I know THERE, it’s safe
When we’re keeping our space

But I’ve never been one to settle
This child in thorn’s been attacked
No, not born to_ No, never meant to see the world through her eyes alone

Yes its beauty is rare beyond compare
But its poison destroys with determined despair

So I ask you, dare you, challenge you, BEG you
Please grow out your nails and scratch off your hard scales
So that scared, little girl will come outside
And for once breathe the life she’s been destined for

Meant to join in companionship, true comradery
To establish a kingdom that’s fit for a king